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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

small fish, big pond

"Sometimes I believe that I can do anything.  Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring.  But, you look at my heart and you tell me that I've got all you seek.  And it's easy to believe..."
-Free to Be Me, Francesca Battestelli

My little brother's fourteenth birthday was this past Sunday.  One of his friends gave him these beads that
 g r o w into fish in this tank.  He had the most fun watching them grow over a couple of hours.

What can I say?  We Wilsons are rather easily amused.

And I got to thinking (I always get to thinking) about fish and their environments.  I heard somewhere along the way that a fish can never outgrow its tank.  It's body can sense how big its living arrangements are, and will actually stunt its own growth in order to adapt to its surroundings.  Goldfish can actually be pretty huge.  I didn't know this, but it seems to make sense.  Gosh, those little guys are smart.

I've been stressing out about my own living arrangement, recently.  I learned that there are no vacant spots in my grad school's "graduate" dorm - so I've been given a room in a residence hall that is dedicated to couples that are married and have children.


Nothing against married couples.  Or children.  I was just looking forward to bonding with some other singles.  Cue Beyonce, ya know (wa-uh-oh-oh-oh-oh...)?

And sometimes, the thirty-two thousand dollar student loan that I took out to pay for my tuition year just seems a little steep.  Well, "steep" if "steep" were code for: OH MY FREAKING GOSH HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO DO THIS?!

But then I remember the fish.  That's right, the fish had a point.  Swim this way.  I think all little fish are intimidated by their big ponds.  And that's just what I am.  This little baby fish, is entering the great void of the big pond.  A fish who was used to having someone sprinkle her food to the top of the tank is now entering the unknown.

My point is this:  If you don't have moments in your life where you are intimidated by your new location, job, life circumstance, you will never have the opportunity to grow.  You will just be a blubbering, teeny goldfish, swimming around in a bowl.  See what I mean?

(Forgive me for taking this analogy waaaaaay too far.  I've had a lot of coffee).

1 comment

Elisa said...

I love your analogy!! Married couples and children? Sounds like an adventure!!!
Cue Rusted Root's "on my way" music... NOW.

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